life.

Let me tell you about a story of a girl who loves her family so much and it ended up tragic. Okay, so here I go...when she was a kid, or so a bud, everything was so perfect, she thought of it. She can get what she wants, but not immediately somehow. Her mom, her dad, her brother, everything...they were so happy back then, went to the mall, the park, or somewhere every Sundays (because it's a non-working day). That was just she thought, perfect family. Everything starts in here...in 2003 -- she was ten at that time, her mom and dad need to live out of town to take care some business, so her brother and her have to stay in her grandmother's house. By weekends, she's with her parents, and by every Monday morning, they have to drop her off from school which was a 2-hour drive from their home. Being apart with your parents at a young age is really difficult. Trust me. Almost every night she have to cry, she was so emotional at that time. And her Uncle, HE WAS SO TERRIBLE, I'd swear to God. He always shouted at her, scold her even though she didn't do nothing, bugs her off, and everything else. I think she was the only one he hates. He was so good to her brother. Ugh! If she could just kick his balls. Good thing she was so obedient child back then. Kayso, enough with the nagging. The complicated story goes here... I'd told you she'd stay with her parents by weekends, so by every Friday, her dad picks her up at school. After a few weeks, one Friday evening, there was this girl rode at his car. She asked her dad "Who is she?" "that is my secretary at work so I need to drop her off at her home.", he answered. Let me call this girl "hooker". So the hooker was so nice to her, she even brought toys and food for her. Until one time, she saw them kissing each other with her dad. So her dad says to her when she saw the scene, it's like he was threatening her, "You keep what you saw or I'll sue you!" So she kept quiet for years and years just for her mom and dad's sake --and just a fact, she moved in with her parents by this time. She doesn't know why but every fight of her parents, she's always there, or so she doesn't have any absences. They argue about that her dad had a mistress, and she was in the corner, sitting, crying, guilty, and kept quiet. After some few months she couldn't handle anymore. She's sick of pretending that she doesn't know anything about everything. That was January 1st, 2005, she told her mom about everything...everything. Her mom even scolded her for not telling that immediately. Oh God, if she'd only knew what behind all those secrets and the reasons why she kept them all by herself. Few things are: she doesn't wants to have a broken family, she doesn't wants to ruin all the perfect moments she have experienced, and most of all, if ever her parents would be separated, she doesn't know where to go-- she's not that close with her mom and she doesn't want to go with her dad because of Hooker. By that day she waited for her dad to went home, even her mom but no one showed up. After that day, he showed up, at midnight, she was asleep, until she woke up with those shouting voices around her. Until she saw they had a big fight, her dad kicked her mom, but he failed to hit her, but she was the one that has been hit. And it hurts, not the kick but her heart. She went outside and cry, she doesn't want to saw everything... she thought everything was over...so she decided to went back to the house, but she'd saw some slaps, punches. After her parents saw her, they'd stop. Her dad went out.............and guess what, he never did come back... NEVER, until August 4th, 2010-- because at this time, he passed away. If you ever wonder where her brother is, he still stayed at her grandma's. After that incident, she became emo, a rebel-- that's the reason how she have this bad attitude now that her mom always complains about. Every night, she went home late...very late in the evening. Every time she went out, she saw HAPPY families together, she was jealous, envy, because they were like that before. Every birthday and Christmas, she only wishes for one thing, one small happy family, all together because at that time only her mom and her celebrated Christmas' and New years. In 3 years of time, someone text-ed her, she wondered who, and it was her dad, she was so happy, angry, excited, all feelings in one. Wondering, how is he? Is he alright? What does he want from me? All those thoughts that keep bugging her. So by that time, she always have a secret meetings, but still never forgive him of what he's done. Every time her and mom had a fight she runs in to her dad and wanted a hug :( As time passes by she begins to forgive him because it's her one and only father who loved her like a little girl and her princess. At August 4th, 2010, that's the time God took him from her. She was so sad, the whole world crash. She have so much plans for her and her dad, like her debut party that she wanted to have him as her first dance, she never had that father-daughter dance in her life. She regretted all the things she haven't done for him. Until now, she still cry in her sleep, missing him so badly. And that little girl was me, now she's all grown up never had a chance to show how she loves him. And to those all of you who still have your dad, tell him every day, every morning when you wake to be exact, how much you love him. You never know when he'll be gone.